So my goals lately have been tied into searching out how I can get better with cultivating my inner peace, being vulnerable and transparent and with wearing my trusty masks less and less so that my friends and family can come to love God's creation rather than the facade I often present out of fear.
A word often translated “peace” in the Bible actually means “to tie together as a whole, when all essential parts are joined together.” Inner peace, then, is a wholeness of mind and spirit, a whole heart at rest. Inner peace has little to do with external surroundings. Jesus said, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” He had also told His followers that “in this world you will have many troubles. But take heart! I have overcome the world” (John 16:33). So peace is not the absence of trouble; it is the presence of God.
"What Happens after Death." GotQuestions.org. https://www.gotquestions.org/what-happens-death.html.
With several upcoming decisions I need to make I have definitely felt God's presence but also overwhelmed with the heaviness of these choices I am faced with. I have always known that God has plans for me but I haven't always been the best when trying to tap into exactly what they are so I am attempting to be still and simply Know God so that I can confidently step forward, backward and sometimes even sideways. I have a possible move coming up, some new medical decisions, several tests (an endoscopy, ultrasound and new panel of blood work) and a whole new course of action that my brand new liver specialists wants me to consider, sooner rather than later.
I have also been attempting to ready my heart for more interactions with men. I have some pretty amazing men currently in my life but with some of my responses to some of my health teams suggestions I am afraid I will have much ore opportunity to interact with men who are already in my life and many who are not as of yet and this is scary to me. Whether I am afraid or not I am boldly moving forward with my decision to pursue more open and honest relationships with the opposite sex and have even asked someone who specializes in this type of prayer to put me on his personal prayer list so that some new doors can be opened for me. As many of you know simply typing about this and speaking these types of conversations out loud is a massive swing in a new direction for me. Please feel free to ask me questions, let's have a bible study together, grab a cup of coffee; so that we may encourage one another, pray for one another and grow in our relationships together.
This is all I am currently willing to get into but hoping to do some more boggling here so we can process together this journey we call life. Much love to you all and may the cultivating of our inner peace always be something we strive for even and especially in the face of fear! Carpe Spero 💛💛
