One Day At A Time

Once again it has been too long since I have made a post.. Right now I am working on my internal character, emotions and spiritual make up. If I must lose weight before I can get on the transplant list then I must work on all of the reasons why the weight is here. My weight is my security blanket and something I have convinced myself is necessary for my survival (as backwards as that seems-in my mind and heart it is true for me). I eat in fear, to feel control, for enjoyment, for fellowship, in rebellion and in anger. I have joined a couple of groups and gotten a counselor in hopes of trying to deal with all these emotions which drive my irrational eating and the fears I cannot seem to get away from as I begin to lose weight. I am attempting to get to the YMCA pool once a week and get in short walks 3 times a week as well as consistently attend these new groups but my sleep is filled w/nightmares and my emotions are highly volatile but I am praying, reading and still putting one foot in front of the other. One day at a time and sometimes one moment at a time...

Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it.

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.

2 Fav quotes from Helen Keller